You were there when my first niece was born. When I became an Uncle and the first time I thought of actually having children. You had this radiant smile to you that day with my family. You made the miracle of life feel as it was never ending. I knew without doubt, I wanted you to be a part of my family. I should have said something then but I was to much of a coward. I do apologize and hope you can forgive me. You were and are the only thing that scares me in life. I was scared you would crush me like I have been in the past. That was stupid of me. Now I’m frightened I’ll never see you again but even more worried I can’t be there for you when you need someone.